WORKING ONT IT! i understand now har har


AGH.. HELP. >_<

weeee!! you guys i updated!! hahaha.. jpjp



i was looking through xanga.s and like.. theres an "Atheist and Proud" blogring. skinny was in it .. and im just like.. whoa. hold up. heh. molla. buttuh. its just wierd that people would have so much hate for God. i mean. i understand if you have yet to believe in Christ, and like one of my friends, and shes just Agnostic, which is religion-less not just refusing one religion. and i realize, theyre just scared of what it might mean. of something to that effect. hah. but yea. Agnostic people have yet to realize what kind of impact Christ could have on one's life, but Atheist people just flat out refuse it as baloney. and it doesnt work that way. whats worse is. a lot of Christians dont like to confront such labels. in my class today. i was talking to this one kid with my friend, and we found out taht he [the 'one kid'] was atheist, and it shocked me.. it truly did. not because i dont encounter it alot. but he wasnt really provincial and he was a really open dude. agh. i dont know. sometimes i think the words that come out of my mouth, or through my fingers, is just gibberish and noone really understands but me cause it makes sense in my head. nowhere else. heh. i dont know too many things these days.


--subject change--


GUYS. WTCRAP. AGH. piss me off. im supposedly haveing a "thing" with this junior. `cept.. its not. like. hes like "yea ill call you" and "hey are you ok" [ 5DAYS AFTER I HURT MY NECK... -__-] and i jsut. agh. molla. i like people to be prompt and to call when they say theyre going to call. and to acknowledge me, without me having to go up to them first, and to realize that NOT EVERY GIRL WANTS YOU THAT BAD. .. heh.. [ENDVENT] haha i realized i needed that there.. anyways.


so that is my entry for the day.

im writing it here and not on my xanga. cause .. noone knows this one. and i like it that way. heh.


note to self -- you need to care first in order for people to care as much as you would like about you. .... made no sense. but in my head.y es haha. long story. too lazy. heh.

ok so revival last night was good. yes. it coulda been better and i heard emmanuel's was awesome and so was evergreen's. but still. heh
thing i liked most about it and the thing that i was able to relate to the most was this story.

Table for Two

A man sat at a cafe, obviously waiting for someone, and the waiter said, "would you like something to eat or drink?", and the man declined the offer. Then, the inquisitive waiter came back and asked, "Please don't be offended by my asking, but why do you wait for your date? She has stood you up five times just this week, and shes about two hours late, already, again." The man replied, "Because I know that she needs me, and she loves me." The waiter shook his head, and walked away. When closing time came, the man finally left the cafe, but before he left, he set a reservation for seven, as he did for the past week, and even before.

A woman came back to her apartment tired from her busy night of partying and club-hopping. As she got ready for bed she realized 'I have forgotten something... but what is it?' .. and she looked at her schedule as she said , " Oh darn! I forgot to Pray with Jesus at seven o'clock!.... oh well. he'll be there tomorrow." and she went to sleep without giving it a second thought.
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Don't take Jesus' Love and patience for granted..


.. made me feel so guilty. >__<..

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i decided to give up getting online and updating an stuff for a week, and instead spend more time with Jesus and walking with him. heh. we'll see how that goes =]


[[songofthemoment // Foo Fighters - EverLONG! hah i remembered. =) ]]
[[moodofthemoment // umm...complacent. =P ]]

hoooly crap. i have my hands full the next two years.
if noone hears from me.. this is why >___<

Junior Year
Semester One
1) AP Physics C
2) AP US History
3) Gftd. PreCalc.
4) Hon. Span. III


Semester Two
1) AP Physics C (its 2 sem.s )
2) AP US Hist. ( same here )
3) AP Language
4) AP Psychology

Senior Year
Semester One
1) AP Economy
2) AP Calculus
3) AP Literature
4) --maybe QUEST internship --

Semester Two
1)AP Amer. Gov.
2) AP Calc. (2 sems. )
3) AP Lit ( same )
4) AP Physics B


im seriously going to die. but then lee hyun jae ssn says i should do it. a;lksadf;lasjdf;lksjaf... iderno people..

[[songofthemoment // smashing pumkpins - 1979 ]]
[[moodofthemoment // mind-boggled ]]

I say the stupidest things... like whenever we [meaning me and people] had a political debate about who might win, i always said "Reynolds" for some reason.. i do not know.. when i meant John Edwards.. but if i go back and tell them taht.. itll just make me look stupider... how can i be so commonsense-less when im supposedly supposed to be in gifted classes and such... poop..


and then the other day, I jumped in on a conversation about this girl named Sam, whom i know very well, and I was completely lost, and im just a dumbutt.. =T.. fart..

i wish that God had blessed me with common sense.. cause i have none. and it makes me look like such a dimwit..

you know what... im just not going to talk until i know for sure whats going on.. yea. i like that. =]

---later thoughtts.. what a random entry... =P

i hate essays.. i really do. and its a problem. cause i have to take the SAT soon, and when i take it, its going to have a writing section in it and im screwwed. especially if its one of those days where i jsut do not feel like writing.. like today. i have a shitload of work to do. but here i am writing in my little journal thingy

ahh geez.

AGH... --___________--
example. today in class some girl was talking about audi's. but the way she said it sounded like "outtie" and shes all audis (outties) rock!. and so im like well im an innie and innies are better. hooooooooooooly crap i was so embarrased.. -___-

i really need to start studying and taking my classes seriously i have so many AP classes next year and im getting a 17/37 on tests in a gifted class. damm. God Help.